In Love with love

You know the drill. You do the looking, the body language that says you're interested, you even do the pursuing and chasing.  That person is so aloof! What is it about them that intrigues you so?  Is it having what seems out of reach? Perhaps.  Then, you end up in a "relationship" with this person only to find that they are just as much of a self-centered jerk as you thought they were when you were chasing after them.

How can this be? You were so certain it was just a "game", just a "show" they put forth to seem aloof, uninterested, and indifferent. In this psuedo-relationship, your thoughts, concerns, wants, and needs come dead last. Even the pet goldfish is tossed more attention than you. That's okay, they're just scared of really committing, right?  They have a busy schedule and multiple obligations, it's only temporary (and sometimes, yes, it is).  Soon, they will step up and be the person you've never seen them to be. You're just sure of it! Faith can't fail you now, right?

The honest truth is that past behaviors are the best indicators of future behaviors. Yes, people go through times where they act un-like themselves. Yes, people even change. By and large, this is not the case and people are highly unlikely to change for you or because of you. When you see someone for what they are, don't be shocked when you get into a "relationship" and they are the same way. You saw it coming from a mile away.  Don't couch it as, "if they loved me enough, they'd change!". First, that's egotistical and self-centered on your part.  Second, it's not a matter of loving or not loving you, it's a matter of personal decisions and likely long, ingrained behaviors.  Saying that sounds like something a girl in junior high would say. Let's assume we're all mature adults here and start taking personal responsibility for our lack of sound jugments.

You can't love someone into changing, you can't will someone into changing. You can't just hold out a hundred more years knowing they're going to change.  Yes, you can be forgiving, understanding, and non-self-serving.  You shouldn't be a doormat, you should be more than just an option. You should not be considered only when you're convenient, that isn't love.  So why do you keep going after these people?

It's really quite simple when you boil it down to the bare bones.  It's because you're in love with the idea of being in love. You want a "soul mate" because you've been taught you're not a whole person without one. (Really? This whole life you've managed without your "other half", you can't continue to or the earth will stop spinning and life as you know it will end? How repressive and masochist.)  You need someone to love you, to support you, because for some reason, loving and supporting yourself isn't good enough.  Life can't be happy without that special someone, a special someone will make you sooo happy! Yes, having a good partner can enhance aspects of life but it is no one's job on this earth to make you  happy so stop saddling people with that role. It is selfish and unfair. 

Romanticizing love and relationships will get you to one place: disappontment. 

Ghosts and Entities

If you've seen the movie, Fragile, you'll hear a theory about ghosts that has long rang true with me.  The movie explains that ghosts stay near what they love, it doesn't have to be where they lived or who they lived around, though it can be.  A ghost may take up residence because a place reminds them of a place they loved in life. They may stay near a person because that person resembles or represents what they loved in life. Say a person loved children in life. Perhaps they will take up residence in an nursery and be near that child until they grow up. Perhaps they loved gardens and will make their home in your beautiful garden.

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Quick Lesson in Numerology

Before continuing through the rest of the Tarot, let me explain what is meant by the numbers on the cards, their significance.

The first basic rule of numerology to remember is that all numbers will be consolidated down to the numbers between 1 and 9.  So if a card is keyed with the number 21, you add the 2 + 1 to get 3.  Now, here's a brief lesson on the meanings of the numbers 1 through 9.

One-    Represents a beginning, action, independence, creativity, possibilities.
(Think of the Fool in the tarot deck)

Two- Duality and balance.  Harmony and intuition.

Three- The Trinity; Subconscious, mind and imagination, creation.

Four- Order, logic, practicality, loyal, steadfast, responsible.

Five- Change, exploration, freedom, knowledge-seeker, imagination, playful and child-like.

Six- Harmony, love, healing, order, duty.

Seven- Philosopher, deep thinker, stoic, introspective, esoteric.

Eight- Abundance, acheivement, success, authority, grandeur, material manifestation.

Nine- Completion, endings, selfless, romantic, loving, idealistic.

Learning Tarot- The World (LAST OF THE MAJOR ARCANA)

Allister Crowley Thoth Tarot

Key 21

Numerology 21

You're ready to understand why you're here and what you've accomplished, you've successfully completed one cycle in your life, moving from the Fool to here, completion. You've obtaied a great understandig of all of the lessons you've been through.

Reversed, you have a lack of vision and/or you are not learning from your past or the lessons you're supposed to be learning in order to progress and move forward in life.  Reversed, your journey is postponed until you put forth more work to get where you need to be.

Learning Tarot- Judgement

Arto Tarot

Key 20

Numerology 20

The Judgement card signifies one big, giant cosmic wake up call!  This card indicates self-actualization, work well done, tasks well completed.  It indicates a desire for something better, something on a higher plane. Finally, you've mastered a skill you've worked hard to hone and are more enlightened for it.

Reversed, the Judgement card indicates you're denying the inevitable, that giant trumpet in your ear. Here is where the card is a wake-up call to get with it, re-examine your life and be pro-active! Most of all, stop and LISTEN before acting.

Learning Tarot- The Sun

Mystic Dreamer Tarot

Key 19

Numerology 19

The Sun card indicates contentment, peacefulness, and joyous unions.  Look for success in all you touch, the "Midas Touch", and realize happiness will be within as well as on the outside.

Reversed, the Sun indicates a rocky path, you feel dissatisfied with your mastery of tasks. Seek optimism and counsel to set things right-side up again.

Learning Tarot- The Moon

The Legacy of the Divine Tarot

Key 18

Numerology 18

The Moon card can be a warning of unforseen events ahead.  It can represent disagreements and emotional outbursts, fallings out with those you love and care for.  You may have the sense somethig BIG is coming. It also, obviously, indicates things that happen at night.

Reversed, the Moon card allows all truths to surface, be they good or bad.  People will be point-blank and honest with how they feel about you but won't throw in extra emotions or theatrical displays. Think blunt and to the point.  It is assurance that love and understanding will succeed in the end, misunderstandings will be brought to light and cleared up.